Episode 168 : Do I believe?

So what does one do when one's sleep is disturbed for three hours by a cranky one-year old from 1 in the morning (I felt sorry for the fellow though)?

I lay back and thought. Of belief systems and behavioural modification. When you allow a belief system to develop and prosper for over a decade, you also allow behavioural modification to a certain extent.

Changing behaviour after your ways are set isn't easy. It is intimidating enough to stop you. It calls for shedding one's beliefs, grow new ones that will be vulnerable till they become strong enough to withstand future tests. While you have to be emotionally strong enough to bear the rigours of such a transit.

I have been called naive, dumb and stupid before. My belief system was strong; I had faith in myself that I could see it through. And cock a snook at those who thought I wouldn't.

After 14 long years, I wonder if I was right all along. Whether my beliefs have a place in today's world, whether today's society appreciates them. When I see others around me, I have my doubts.

Today I feel I must change some, break some and make some. And if that happens, it will be the end of Jekyll.

As I pondered on this theory in the morning, I stumbled upon this post.

I had a wry smile when I finished reading it. Perhaps there is some hope for the species. But I think my time is up.